I’ve been thinking a lot about life. About how people struggle. How so many choose to end their life as a result. I’m going to go out on a limb here: I’ve been there too. I’ve thought of how easy it would be to just end it. I believed that no one would care. I was really wrong. I know that now. And more and more, it bothers me to see people so adamant about taking their own life as a solution. Because…it’s not worth it. If you make the choice to stick through it, things get so much better. And I’m recently discovering such beautiful aspects of this world that I never even knew existed. Things that reaffirm my belief that suicide isn’t an option. That validate my thought that life is a beautiful thing, and it’s worth sticking out. With this in mind, I’ve decided to create a suicide checklist. I know, it sounds crazy. But it’s the kind of thing that people need to think about before they make such a decision.
So here it is. A list of things that must be done before someone can actually choose to take their own life.
1) Go somewhere. Somewhere that you have never been before. Somewhere that is totally different. If you live in the country, visit the city. Vice versa. Go to a beach. Go somewhere beautiful. If you’re willing to leave this world, you have to know all the beauty it holds.
2) Tell everyone. Every single person you love. Every person that has loved you. The ones that have hurt you. The ones you’ve hurt. The ones that don’t seem significant. Wear a sign that says you are going to take your life. Make sure everyone knows. If you’re willing to leave this world, you have to know the impact of your decision.
3) Talk to someone. Find someone who has felt the way you do, and survived it. Ask them questions. Ask advice. They will be willing to help you. If you’re willing to leave this world, you have to know what could be.
4) Find someone who is worse off than you are. There is always someone. Speak with them. Ask them questions. Get to know them, and to understand the way they see things. If you’re willing to leave this world, you have to know the reality of the situation.
5) Make a list. Write down every good thing that has ever happened to you. Every good person you have ever met. Every time you’ve smiled. Every good thing you’ve done for someone else. The name of every person you have ever come into contact with. And leave a blank. A huge blank, for your future. If you’re willing to leave this world, you have to know what you’re leaving behind.
Five steps. Five simple things to do before you make that decision. Before you choose to end your pain, your unhappiness. You’re going to make a permanent decision. It is irreversible. Don’t rush into it. You have time to complete this checklist. And chances are, it’ll change things. It’ll change your life. Believe. Stay strong. You can make it through anything.
I honestly believe that if every suicidal person completed these five things, they would certainly reconsider. I know it was these kind of realizations that saved me. That changed me. That made me the person I am today.